Omens

Posted: January 25, 2018 in Heart

It’s funny how life works sometimes. The universe shows us omens all the time whether we choose to accept them or not. The difference between the former and the latter is that one we are ready to see and the other we are just blind to. All the filters that block our way from seeing the reality of things.

This morning I got home from working the night shift, I do my usual routine. Then I hit the bathroom where I Remeber to take out the contact lens solution and case with her contact lenses in it. I wanted to take them out because I’m going to a seminar with her today and I’ll be seeing her so I figure it’s a good time to give them back to her, do away with the last remaining trace of what’s hers in the house. I take out the bottle and realize it’s pretty much empty. Don’t think much of it. Till I curiously decide to open up the contact lenses case to see what the lenses look like. I’ve never seen one up close as I don’t wear contacts. I open up the case only to find them empty! What I saw made me laugh. That kind of silly laugh. The one that comes from the higher Self when it finds something so obvious and redic at the same time. EMPTY!! The last thing I have of hers, the thing that still represents her I’ve been holding on to for sssooo many months now….. IS FUCKING EMPTY!! I don’t know if your making the connection right now. The thing, representing her, is empty. All surface. No substance. Everything that’s represented by her is empty. Just like whatever she is in, like our relationship is empty. It’s all for show. Substance develops with hardships. Mistakes. Wrong doings. Trials and tribulations. Realizations. The blessed ones get to have these moments in life to realize what’s important. To realize what we have and how valuable it is. The rest is just so fleeting. Our deepest fears are those of being alone in this life. And it’s for a reason. Even if not realized now, they always will be in the end. One of the best quotes I’ve ever heard was…. All will be revealed in the end.

I was talking to my up line team mate this morning. This lady is awesome! She’s the one that got me into this one direct marketing business I run. I was telling her about the breakup, she knows very well how much I was affected last time. I was a mess. We’re chatting and she’s telling me how great I sound this time compared to lash time and all that. Before we get started talking business she tells me a story of her friend who’s 50, always been single. Lived her life “to the fullest”, did the whole career thing and went about her life on the superficial. I’m sure she had lots of fun in her life. Played it like it was her last. And now she’s 50, she tells her she’s just so lonely. The man of her dreams passed her by and no doubt cause she couldn’t give enough of herself over to and get over her own self to be able to see the outcome of her actions. Now she’s 50 and alone. Anyone she find now will be 100% settling. Her dreams were too big, her ego was too big, and she was living all about the moment. Her priorities were just to succeed on her own. And she did. She succeeded on her own. And now she’s a success, On her own. All on her own. All alone.

My heart went out to her. There’s no going back to redo. Realizing way too late, to me, is the worst fate. I’m certainly blessed to be in my prime and making these realizations now. Before its way way too late. Having my anxieties, panic attacks, failures, heartbreaks, health issues, all this at a young age where I’m strong enough to deal with them and smash them. Some are not so fortunate. Some learn this right at the end. Some never learn it and die miserable. I don’t want to be that. Ever! I don’t want to divorce at 50, when there’s children involved cause I’m in a loveless marriage. Or worse yet, stay in a relationship that makes me absolutely miserable every day of my life. Or even worse yet, have my wife be miserable and me stressing patient with her, not talking, not having fun, not enjoying my golden years like my parents. It terrifies me that it could turn out like that. They were too busy to make those realizations then and only made them when it was too late. As a man who’s relatively successful I can stay a bachelor for quite a while, so there’s no fear there. My taste will change I’m sure. I won’t want the 21 year olds anymore. Well I don’t now. Now I want the 25 year olds. Soon it’ll be the 30 year olds. But I don’t need to be locked down. Woman on the other hand, well that’s a whole other story. But what I do want is someone to grow with. Not just grow old with but grow together with. Remeber all the fun crazy stuff we used to do as stupid kids. All the crazy times we’ve been through. The ups and the downs. Go through hell and back with them. Only to come out stronger than ever. And for me that was her. Now the ex. And for the foreseeable future, that’s how she will remain. It feels like a shame but I know that everything works out for the best. Exactly the way it should. I wasn’t happy. And I knew it, but told myself that I made commitment and will act from that and not from my feelings and thoughts. Doing that in the right situation and the right relationship is noble and wise. Doing that in the wrong situation and relationship will only lead to heartache, heartbreak, misery, and this dead empty feeling inside that can’t ever be filled. Doing the right thing for the wrong reason is way worse than doing the wrong thing for the right reason.

A wise man once said, you have to have faith that the dots will connect in the future. So just do the work. Create the expectations. And chill the fuck out!! The most successful people on the planet do the work and then let things come to them. And that’s what I’ll do. So for now, I must do the work. And the work is not hard. It’s not meant to be hard. It’s supposed to be fun, light, joyous. Small increments of joy bring big ones. Small. Miracles bring big ones. Momentum builds. Then the universe has no choice but to give you what your after. What you really want. Focus on what you want and stop giving attention to what you do not want. The universe can only give what your focused on, good or bad. So focus on the good and let the good flood to you till you have no idea what to do with all of it! Enjoy each moment equally with valour!

Parting thought…..

“If we were standing in your physical shoes, that would be our dominant quest: entertaining yourself, pleasing yourself, loving yourself, connecting with yourself, being yourself, enjoying yourself, loving yourself. Some say,” well Abraham you teach selfishness.” And we say, yes we do, yes we do, yes we do, because unless you are selfish enough to reach for that connection, you don’t have anything to give anyone, anyway. And when you are selfish enough to make that connection – you have an enormous gift that you give everywhere you are. ” – Abraham

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